I've been meaning to start a blog for (literally) years, but...breaking news and real life drama seem to get in the way. Or at least I've let them get in the way. Seems I can put so much ahead of what makes me happy, without much thought.
Blogging is by no means a luxury. It will take work, (hopefully) some creativity...and (the big one) time.
I'm not the best at taking time for myself. It makes me feel selfish. Before I was married, and before I had my son, there were other people I could put in front of myself: my family, my friends...you name it! My husband, and then my son have become the perfect excuses to put myself last. And although being a wife, and being a mother means making some sacrifices...I know it doesn't mean I have to lose myself. At least I think I know.
See...I've been working a 12 step program for about 20 months. I've learned things about myself in that time, that in the 35 years before had been hidden from view. I hid them. I hid them behind "caring" for my friends, family, co-workers, the little guy...you name it!
So. This is a small attempt at carving out time from my demanding job, my pretty wonderful life, and my tendency to do busy work, or to do nothing in order to keep from doing what really needs to be done.
Hopefully, I keep at it.
C.
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